Decision! OMG

Having to decide is the best and worst thing at the same time. I was always had this dilemma in my life and have lot of experience with regards to making decisions. I wonder why I choose to do what I don't love but still keep doing it. I live a life of a hypocrite. Fear of failure has kept me away from even attempting what I want to do. What I love to do. Even the realization of the fact has not been able to guide me through this. I fear I am going to fail miserably and never attempt to do the thing by which I refuse to learn.

Bluff and more of it.........

I want to travel a lot. Like a bird which sheds it relationships in the nest. I have to meet people. Get cheated, involved in some adventure all while I am having a camera. Snapping pictures, feeling  love, hate and witnessing desires of people of all those troubled lands. Witnessing the pride of the souls which think they have “won”. A race few wont even understand (I am one among them). Race for glory which never has a trace into few years of our death. The attitude of abuse. The arrogance for  humiliation. The pride of victory inspired by the writers of history, history of people who had the pride in winning, a heart to defeat,  A way to kill, A likeness to hate.

A world with so many lives.  As simple as that Buddha, one among the enlightened ones to fail miserably. Written legacy is failed by the people. Knowledge makes them blind to feel and express. They are blind to feel  and hence dumb to express. I want to be enlightened one at the end.